Spread Your Wings ©2007 Ron Dahle
When I looked at the caller ID on the phone and got that tingly feeling all over I realized that, which I have been trying so hard to deny for a while, was indeed a fact… I am in love. Actually, I have known it since the day I met her but tried my best to deny it. Deep down inside I think she realizes this to, as I am fairly transparent when it comes to some matters.
Due to the age difference I fully realize that nothing will ever come of this, and I am as comfortable with that as I can be.
What is important, is that the void in my soul that wants to love someone is filled. I truly believe that everyone needs to be in love with someone. The fact that I have fallen in love with a person that is not in love with me and never will be, is something I am cool with. One can only expect so much in a lifetime.
There is a lot more to being in love than sex, or intimacy. Love is a condition, a state of being that lifts and rejuvenates ones soul.
Ironically we are in the process of forming a friendship that, with luck will endure, and that is all I can ask or expect. I know many married couples who are not now , nor have they ever been friends. Their relationships are based on the superficial aspects of life.
In the waning years of my life I feel that to be able to have the feelings I do for this person is a true blessing. If it were to end tomorrow, while I would be saddened, I would also be comforted knowing that for a period of time there was someone I was (and likely still would be) willing to move mountains for, and ask or expect nothing in return.
If you ever find yourself in this position, don’t be sad, don’t fight or deny it; instead cherish it and savor every moment, for moments like this come along way too seldom in one’s life.
The old fool McGoo says goodbye till the next time.